I THINK I CAN CHANGE , I THINK I CAN BE SOMEONE NEW , BUT.. I STILL HAVE THE SAME FEELING.. I CANT CHANGE IT..

after all this while , i conclude that i have change lots of myself , but i still cant change the feeling i feel.. i still have that feeling n im sure i cant ignore nor dump it.. coz its a true feeling rather than a make up ones.. hhmm.. bla dah hilang the reason y i made this blog , dah xtau nk tulis ape dah.. hmm.. dah empty... blog pun dah usang dan bersarang.. huhu.. haaiss.. ="""(

khas utk seseorg = SELAMAT HARI JADI KE-20

selamat menyambut harijadi ke 20 tahun dan 20 hari..

maaf , masih xdpt nk melupakan dan masih takot utk berdepan meskipun utk mengucapkn selamat hari lahir.. smoga dipanjangkn umur, dimurahkn rezeki , berjaya dlm sgala bidang yg diceburi , shat walafiat , berjaya dunia dan akhirat..

note: maaf ats kesalahan lampau dan krana selalu "jump to conclusion"..

i just managed to catch a glimpse.. but its enough =""D

yesterday was a day that i dont hv any feeling at all.. it just died... hmmm.. i dont know any other excuses to make me feel that its not my fault.. i can just blame myself for everything that has happened.. hmmmm... my future looks dimmed.. btw.. earlier, at noon, i saw her.. i saw the face that calmed me when im at my most missery moment, the one that i've been dying to see even if its only for a split of second.. n i saw her just for a second.. n it makes my day.. i do missed her.. honestly im dying to see n meet her for 1 more time,mayb my last chance to talk to her.. coz i wanna to appologise to her for being the reason for all the disturbing moment she had to faced.. i reggret it so much n im really2 sorry.. im sorry.. im sorry.. im sorry.. im sorry.. im sorry.. im sorry n im sorry.. im sorry coz i've treated u the wrong way.. im sorry coz i didnt stick to the promises i've made to u.. im sorry for insulting someone.. n sorry to ur family.. i've been feeling so bad to ur family n especially to u.. all i can do now is just saying sorry.. if there's anyone who read this, please tell her that im sorry for all my mistakes.. im sorry..

HHMMMM.. X SNGKA BTOL...

sjak 2-3 hari lps aku wat spring cleaning 4 my room, ngan notes2 form 6 bersepah-sepah, aku sort it out laa.. asingkn yg mna yg aku still bole gna n yg mna bole d hntar g recycle.. then lam sibuk2 mengasingkn 2, aku jumpa notes lma yg aku tulis tp x smpat nk d bg pd org yg aku niatkn smasa menulis 2.. hmm... sume 2 aku tulis utk "the upcoming events" , but none of it has become a part of my life.. ='( btol la apew yg org ckp, kita hnya merancang tp tuhan yg menentukn.. aku tawoo adew byk g notes2 mcm 2 yg msih tersembunyi.. hope aku akn jmpa sume 2 n x terbuang.. hmmm... till next time , just remember , dont wait to do something coz when u do it , it might hv been a little too late...

ahaaa... ;D

adik aku minat kt japanese boy kt kelas dier !! wahkakaka.. gudluck lah na.. hehe.. 2 mirasya plak.. hehe.. congrats n gudluck lam perjalanan menjadi seorang pemandu nnt.. hehe..

i dont know how to describe it.. its a feeling of sadness n missing someone all together.. ="(

hmmm... this evening my youngest sis try to tell me that she met her, but i pretend to be deaf like i dont care.. but inside, im missing it.. how lucky is my little sis to hv the chance to met her ,someone who she already feels like her own elder sister.. huurrmmm.. i've never kept any grudge against her.. no way.. since my last moment at school, i've been praying for at least been able to hv a glance looking at her.. im missing her company.. well, its maybe my fate not being able to see her again , its my wrongs too as the last time i saw her, i didnt hv the guts to walk up to her n ask her for forgiveness of all my wrongs.. im sorry of all my wrongs, may allah blessed u in every moment of ur life, successful in every things u do, always being cared by allah n always being happy in ur life . im sorry.. hmmm... akak n adk(s), klau bca nieh, do text me later erk.. i need both of you to talk, or someone to talk.. im lonely now.. hmm... my blog now da jd a place rarely visited by me.. da x tawoo nk tulis aper dah.. no matter how old im going to b, no matter how hard my life would be.. i know something i said thats not going to change n it would not change in any circumstances.. u know whats really in my heart, what do i felt..i've never lied about it.. adios..