Friday, October 22, 2010


after all this while , i conclude that i have change lots of myself , but i still cant change the feeling i feel.. i still have that feeling n im sure i cant ignore nor dump it.. coz its a true feeling rather than a make up ones.. hhmm.. bla dah hilang the reason y i made this blog , dah xtau nk tulis ape dah.. hmm.. dah empty... blog pun dah usang dan bersarang.. huhu.. haaiss.. ="""(

Saturday, August 7, 2010

khas utk seseorg = SELAMAT HARI JADI KE-20

selamat menyambut harijadi ke 20 tahun dan 20 hari..

maaf , masih xdpt nk melupakan dan masih takot utk berdepan meskipun utk mengucapkn selamat hari lahir.. smoga dipanjangkn umur, dimurahkn rezeki , berjaya dlm sgala bidang yg diceburi , shat walafiat , berjaya dunia dan akhirat..

note: maaf ats kesalahan lampau dan krana selalu "jump to conclusion"..

Thursday, February 25, 2010

i just managed to catch a glimpse.. but its enough =""D

yesterday was a day that i dont hv any feeling at all.. it just died... hmmm.. i dont know any other excuses to make me feel that its not my fault.. i can just blame myself for everything that has happened.. hmmmm... my future looks dimmed.. btw.. earlier, at noon, i saw her.. i saw the face that calmed me when im at my most missery moment, the one that i've been dying to see even if its only for a split of second.. n i saw her just for a second.. n it makes my day.. i do missed her.. honestly im dying to see n meet her for 1 more time,mayb my last chance to talk to her.. coz i wanna to appologise to her for being the reason for all the disturbing moment she had to faced.. i reggret it so much n im really2 sorry.. im sorry.. im sorry.. im sorry.. im sorry.. im sorry.. im sorry n im sorry.. im sorry coz i've treated u the wrong way.. im sorry coz i didnt stick to the promises i've made to u.. im sorry for insulting someone.. n sorry to ur family.. i've been feeling so bad to ur family n especially to u.. all i can do now is just saying sorry.. if there's anyone who read this, please tell her that im sorry for all my mistakes.. im sorry..

Wednesday, February 24, 2010


sjak 2-3 hari lps aku wat spring cleaning 4 my room, ngan notes2 form 6 bersepah-sepah, aku sort it out laa.. asingkn yg mna yg aku still bole gna n yg mna bole d hntar g recycle.. then lam sibuk2 mengasingkn 2, aku jumpa notes lma yg aku tulis tp x smpat nk d bg pd org yg aku niatkn smasa menulis 2.. hmm... sume 2 aku tulis utk "the upcoming events" , but none of it has become a part of my life.. ='( btol la apew yg org ckp, kita hnya merancang tp tuhan yg menentukn.. aku tawoo adew byk g notes2 mcm 2 yg msih tersembunyi.. hope aku akn jmpa sume 2 n x terbuang.. hmmm... till next time , just remember , dont wait to do something coz when u do it , it might hv been a little too late...

Sunday, January 17, 2010

ahaaa... ;D

adik aku minat kt japanese boy kt kelas dier !! wahkakaka.. gudluck lah na.. hehe.. 2 mirasya plak.. hehe.. congrats n gudluck lam perjalanan menjadi seorang pemandu nnt.. hehe..

Monday, January 11, 2010

i dont know how to describe it.. its a feeling of sadness n missing someone all together.. ="(

hmmm... this evening my youngest sis try to tell me that she met her, but i pretend to be deaf like i dont care.. but inside, im missing it.. how lucky is my little sis to hv the chance to met her ,someone who she already feels like her own elder sister.. huurrmmm.. i've never kept any grudge against her.. no way.. since my last moment at school, i've been praying for at least been able to hv a glance looking at her.. im missing her company.. well, its maybe my fate not being able to see her again , its my wrongs too as the last time i saw her, i didnt hv the guts to walk up to her n ask her for forgiveness of all my wrongs.. im sorry of all my wrongs, may allah blessed u in every moment of ur life, successful in every things u do, always being cared by allah n always being happy in ur life . im sorry.. hmmm... akak n adk(s), klau bca nieh, do text me later erk.. i need both of you to talk, or someone to talk.. im lonely now.. hmm... my blog now da jd a place rarely visited by me.. da x tawoo nk tulis aper dah.. no matter how old im going to b, no matter how hard my life would be.. i know something i said thats not going to change n it would not change in any circumstances.. u know whats really in my heart, what do i felt..i've never lied about it.. adios..

Thursday, December 3, 2009

tlg aku !! huuurrrmmm...

knape aku asyik teringt kisah2 sedih ?? aku xnk ingt tp aku xbole nk lupekn.. aku buntu.. aku bengang..aku x tawoo dah nk wat ape.. hmm... dlu, time aku skit atie, aku doa yg bkan2, x pkai akal kowt.. then bla aku sdar, aku doakn yg terbaek utk sume, aku redha, aku maafkn.. tp sesekali bla aku teringt, aku xrasa yg aku dah maafkn.. knape ?? aku perlu petunjuk.. tlg lah aku.. =""" |

Thursday, September 3, 2009

I'm just a stop over, juz a "R&R".. now only i realise it..

I'm only a pit stop.. when they r lonely, they seek me.. i've been treated like this soo many times, not juz by a person.. but by many of them.. i thought i have make them really fall in love with me when they say they do, but im wrong coz i didnt treat them enough to make they fall in love with me surely.. thats my bad coz didnt realise that.. yeah, mayb i'm sweet at the beginning, i wish i could b that sweet 4ever..,but i also have problems n busyness trying to cope with studies , n also financial problems.. but i went through it alone.. its not my intention to neglect her.. but cant they understand my situation or try to understand it ?? n now i've lost my apetite to study.. i thought that when i study , mayb there's a brighter future for us.. now that dream breaks to millions of pieces.. u think only u that suffer from "tekanan perasaan" ? dont u know im having it worst than u felt ????? with all the depression n all sort of stress.. u think i'm happy ? im suffering inside.. yes, i may look like a person that r still can laught with my fren n still happy enjoying mylife.. but thats the outside of me.. in the inside , only ALLAH knows what i feel..

but thank you coz u still understand me n my prob. n coz u didint take that action.. THANK YOU..

but life must moves on.. so after months of mourning over the spilled milks , i'm ready 4 the new life once again..

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

me feeling.. naa.. kang jgn nangis bla bca nie.. hehe..

Well it's hard to explain but I'll try if you let me
Well it's hard to sustain
I'll cry if you let me
This doesn't change the way I feel about you or your place in my life
Can't you see I'm dying here?
A shot of broken heart that is chased with fear
Angels cry when stars collideI can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way

Intentions that were pure have turned obscure
Seconds into hoursMinutes into years
Don't ask me why
I can't tell you lies

Angels cry when stars collideI can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way.

My heart burns through
My chest to the floor
Tearing me silently although abruptly
Words can't hide as I'm taking you home
And I tried to see
Tried to understand your words as I'm taking you home

Angels cry when stars collideI can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing And waves are crashing stars are falling one by one for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you're my, my,
my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away
and Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Kubawa jauh rinduku
Kerna akau telah tahu
Kau bukan milikku

Sesunguhnya bukan mudah
Menjalani hidup ini
Tanpa kau di sisi
Jauh disudut hati
Aku masih bermimpi
Mimpi yang indah
Esok kau kembali

Jauh di sudut hati
Ada waktu-waktunya
Aku berdoa
Kau pulang semula

Biar ku mengingatimu
Biar kugantung harapan
Hingga sampai waktu
Nafas terakhirku

forget what along said b4.. ( naa..)

dlu along ckp yg it wont hurt anybody if we love someone with all our heart.. even if they no longer wants you.. all the things i've said b4 to you.. JUST FORGET IT !!! coz, its not true.. loving someone sometime if not all the times can hurt the other person.. love is pure but it can also b a poison if you push it over the limit.. along nie bdo coz x dgr ckp na dlu.. like ur case with wafer, along pown nk jd cm naa lar.. b single 4 ever.. k ?? cmmnt2.. heehee..